I have had sooooo much going on in my life the past month or so, that once again, I have put my needs on the back burner. The biggest of them all is my quest to lose weight.
Today was a reality check for me. It wasn't one of those "light bulb" moments, just a slap in the face and wake up call. I had to be really honest with myself and take responsibility for my weight loss, or lack of weight loss to be more exact.
For the 1st time, I had to really tell myself that it's time to get committed & motivated, and STICK TO IT! As most of you know, I have been doing Weight Watchers, but to be honest, I have never really committed myself to it 100%. I would be great for a couple of weeks, then go off track. Or I'd be really good tracking points during the week, then undo all my efforts on the weekend. As for exercise, well that all went out the window when we had the heat wave at the end of Summer, which was 2 months ago.
I know that my weight loss has been slow because I haven't been 100% into it. No one else to blame but myself. I let life get to me, and I lose motivation real fast. I took for granted that I have been able to hover around 97-98kgs for a couple of months. I somehow thought as long as I wasn't gaining, it was ok. Why I didn't get angry then and want to actually LOSE more weight, is beyond me???
So, this morning, after a hiatus of 2 weeks, I weighed in, and that's when I got a slap in the face. I'd put on 1.5kg and am now back up to 99kgs. There is NO WAY I am going to let myself get into the triple digits again after trying so long to get under it. I am so angry with myself!!!
I'm not going to big note myself and say I am gonna do this and that this week etc. I'm just going to take each day as it comes. I got my book out and started tracking my points again. I had breakfast again. Time to get serious!
Monday, May 12, 2008
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Well done on acknowledging what needs to be done - that's half the battle.
As you said, just take it one day at a time and before you know it you'll be on the right track to where you want to be.
Good luck.. I'm looking forward to hearing about your successes.
You've done so well to get back on track and face up to it all, and 1.5kg is not that bad! I on the other hand have completely let things slip, but your right, its the thought of going into three digits thats scary, so well done on getting back on track!!
sorry you are struggling
there is a tiny voice over here in the US cheering you on!
Thanks Ladies! Internal demons are bad, but figuring out what is causing them, is HARD!!!
Angela - thank you, Darling! Your kind words touch me more than you know. I actually had a dream about meeting you, Eric and your kidlets the other morning. I was giving the kids Aussie themed gifts, and a gorgeous book about adoption to you and Eric! It was soooo vivid :)
wow teeny. how cool.
you're awesome.
Wow good on you! Yes figuring out what triggers things and makes us do things is the hardest part... Sounds like your life has been hectic so I hope it is settling down for you now :)
I know how you feel as I tend to commit all week and then go all over the show in the weekend!
Take care x
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